Snow (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} snow_laussen) wrote,@ 2037-11-24 18:53:00 |
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well, that's just great
I leave tomorrow morning for Ko. I'll be gone at least a couple of weeks, who knows? There's so much to do. This is my last evening with Jackal for a while, and she is working, and now it turns out that Estar is at Solitaire painting like...well, like a madwoman. So now on top of everything else I'm scared of right now, I have to be scared of this.
I know she won't hurt me, it's just... What? Maybe it's that I don't like to see her being crazy. It would be better if she wasn't. It makes us all aware that she is a charming monster, when we only want to see the charm.
But I need to be with Jackal more than I need to be comfortable. I need Jackal more than I need to be afraid. That's how it's always been.
